Boring limbo

Don't get me wrong, I'm so grateful to actually be in a TWW, but man, I hate this torture. It's really (technically) too early for me to test (8dpo today), though I'm not really feeling it anyway. My symptoms are less this cycle than they were the past two cycles when I knew I wasn't pregnant, which I of course have to wonder - is that a symptom? It's just so boring sitting around waiting and waiting and waiting... I'm scared though. Scared about how I'll react if or when I get AF. After my optimistic post about being excited for IVF, my feelings took a header and I spent the rest of the week struggling with the sadness of knowing that this is our last attempt before that. Ugh. I hate being infertile.