holy poop! holy poop!! holy poop!!!

I got my period Monday afternoon, which means Tuesday was CD1 in  my clinic's eyes. I've been trying to get in touch with my new (and hopefully improved) coordinator at the clinic - let's call her A - since Monday. We've been playing phone tag, and then today she was out, so I got to try to get in touch with D, the other IVF coordinator (she's hopefully also an improvement - I wasn't impressed by the OI/IUI coordinator)...but I digress. D finally called me back about a half an hour ago (I was getting pretty anxiou that it was taking soooo long ot get ahold of them!). We scheduled the SHG, trial transfer and the blood work for next week, and realize that my husband needs to call to schedule his tests since mine will be in the afternoon and he has to go in as early in the morning as possible. Then she asks a doozy of a question - were we looking to start IVF ASAP or wait until the next series? Say what? I didn't know that was even an option, I had thought we'd have to wait, but I guess since AF showed up nice and early, I may have made the cut-off...(could AF have done me a little twisted favor this time?) She's going to check with my RE and have A call me back tomorrow. If we're not too late, she said I'd start BCP tomorrow! Holy poop!! Tomorrow!!!

I immediately called my husband and told him all of it. He's swamped at work right now and freaked out about that, so I'm not even sure it sank in with him. His response was that he had thought I needed a break from the meds. I'm thinking, I need a break from being not pregnant more than I need a break from the meds. After I got off the phone I pulled out all the paperwork and started crunching numbers again. We're struggling with the decision of doing the shared-risk program that the clinic has, or going with fee for service. It's all a big gamble really, it's just a matter of where the risk is higher for us... Plus, I just submitted info yesterday to a clinical trial in NYC that an online friend of mine (that I think almost all of you know) participated in...which would save us a crap ton of money if we were to do that...but I'd have to travel back and forth to NYC (I say that as though that's a bad thing - I'm a city girl that works in theatre...I freakin' love NYC!)

Ugh - it's so much to think about, but we know we're going to do it, and we've certainly waited long enough...I don't know what we're going to do, but feel free to weigh in and I'll be sure to let you all know what we decide! Whee!!!

Oh yeah, I forgot to add - if we were to start the process now, it would actually save us $2000 if we went with the shared risk program as I turn the magical age of 35 next month and the price goes up! As though my eggs are suddenly going to expire on my 35th birthday. Or perhaps they're just more valuable then... ;)